Am i happy?

i often ask myself this question whenever i feel like life never treated me well. it always come up whenever i want to do something but can not due to some circumstances, mainly because of certain someone. those are the times when i do feel that i can not be happy because my life is so restricted and i feel very trapped. when i want to go somewhere alone, i can not. when i want to be with my friends, i can not. when i want to be with my relatives, somebody else gets mad. there i always cry alone inside my car, parking somewhere before going home.. its pathetic and pitiful. i know i have a choice. i know i can change things but it requires great deal of courage to let go of the things that im already attached to..

writer

i used to believe that i can not write nor do i have the ability to create a sensible article. alas! i was wrong! being a freelance writer taught me a lot of things and i was so proud when my first article was not rejected. yeS! im so so happy. it's actually a training ground for my graduate school.. hahah

ONLINE SHOPPING

I never thought that online shopping can be so addicting and yes, it can be very painful in a way. why? of course, it is because of the money that i spend. im already broke as it is and it gets even worse. i wonder why clothes, shoes and bags are so damn alluring. im not realy an accessory person but suddenly i want to have it all.. i just have to save money cause its frigging expensive to indulge in it.

my blog

i have had several blog sites before though i took it down. this have got to last.